Usapang Shoes

Sometimes I just need to put reins on my emotions no? Sometimes I let go of the anger too fast that I forget to rationalize anymore. Okay, enough cerebral and emotional discussion for now.

I decided to drown everything that I've been feeling for the last couple of days through physical exhaustion today. I'm playing badminton again, and I'm planning to play for the whole afternoon. I need this. I need to exhaust myself, to pour it all out, to give all that I've got, coz I'm so tired of this mundane thoughts already.

One dilemma though. In the past, I have always managed to get myself a sprained ankle. Both my ankles are no virgins when it comes to sprains and twists. My left one has been sprained 3 times, while the right, 4 times. And lately, during my previous badminton sessions, I've always felt a painful sensation on the heels of both my feet. I thought it was because of my trainers shoes. So today, I decided to use my runners instead. If the pain comes again tonight, Im buying a new pair.

That's the dilemma. Which pair, folks? Choose for me?


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Let The Games Begin

I dont give a fart on who you are or what you freakin do, but I just dont like you. You are the bitch of all bitches and I find it so freakin difficult to respect a bitch who does not deserve even a moment's glance from me.

Are we close? No. Most likely never will be. You know why? I dont like you as a person, much less as my boss. You give the term boss a bad name, You fuckin stain it so bad, I can almost see the taints on your ugly face.

Who do you think you are? You dont put yourself above us simply because you were assigned to lead us. You better give us enough reasons to follow because otherwise, hypocrisy is gonna be my cup of tea.


You wanna be a hypocrite? Here's news to you, I can be one too! I can play in your game, and believe it or not bitch, before long youre gonna be in my game too. So lets play this game, shall we? Be a bitch and a hypocrite, and I'll match you from head to neck to chest to vagina to foot - all the way from top to bottom, and left to right across. I wont back out come hell or high waters.

LET THE GAMES BEGIN!
For now, the guns just went off - that's your sign to start running, bitch.

looking forward

I havent been writing much. A lot has been happening these days but I havent the energy to dwell, much less write about it.

One of my dearest friends has been screwed by one of my bosses. By the term, "screwed", I dont mean any sexual connotations. Duh. I mean screwed as in fucked up, trampled on, denied, left-out - potah, lahat na.

I have also been doing a lot of searching - no, not soul searching- but old, plain searching like paghahanap, as in me hinahanap ako, gets? I freakin lost my ipod last Thursday. For the life of me, I can never seem to remember until now if I maybe left it in the taxi cab or dropped it somewhere in the office. Whatever. I'm not getting any idea of ever getting it back, but hey, whoever you are who picked it up, I still have the original accessories, bleh! I know, I know, what am I gonna do with the accessories if the main thing's gone, ayt? Ala nga, but I can still think na ako panalo, win-win situation ba. Waaah.

And yeah, I know I was supposed to be posting more pics here from my recent Baguio trip but the videocam's usb driver is lost somewhere. So ayon, wala talaga akong ganang magpost ng pics.

Okay, so basically its now obvious that I havent been having a good week, ayt? The typical jing should now be whining, sulking, and viciously blogging about her rants. But not today, ladies and gentlemen. I ain't saying I've reformed, but see, I just realized that there are so many things to look forward to, inspite of every shit that's been happenin:

** Tuesday. Ssshh. If you're planning to
be with me on Tuesday, please be safe now. I quote, "Please be safe now
dah-lings, for tomorrow, we shall live dangerously."

** Valentines dinner with my sisters. I'm
always looking forward to our dates my lovely ladies. Kahit kasama ko lang
kayo sa bahay, hehehe.

** Massage. Not from you, coz I want to
pamper you too. Massage Spa, sweetie. Yes, we're going out, dont you remember?
You owe me a date, Pipo sweetheart.

** Tagaytay. We're
going. No matter what. And guess what, everyone that needs to be there WILL BE
there.

Sometimes life gets by too fast. Sometimes we are caught right in the middle of things that we dont notice how far and how long it has been. Sometimes, we tend to dwell on the negatives because of course, these are things that need our attention. We cant afford to be nonchalant about it because we dont want to be neglectful. But see, sometimes, its also good to just move head-on and without thinking so much about it. Sometimes, spontaneity is the answer. Yeah, I like it. Spontaneity...even sounds good rolling out on my tongue.

So there. It has been years since I last looked forward to being spontaneous. I'll try again. I will start today.

Photo Ops Part I

"Golden Pine Hotel. Magandang Umaga! ...

...Lakad muna tayo..Sama ka?

...Huwag nang magtago...

...Dahil, peekabo! Huli ka!...

...Konting akyat lang, andun na tayo...

...Pagdating sa taas, pahinga na tayo...

...Tahimik muna...Kanya-kanyang sikreto...

...Kase minsan, gusto ko ring mag-isa muna...

...Maya-maya, yayain na ulit kita...

...Kasunod mo lang ako, wag kang mag-alala...

...Minsan, ang byahe, masarap pag may kasama...

...Lalo na kapag mga kaibigan mo ang nagyaya...

...One last look. Sa uulitin ha."

PS
me kasunod pa!

Baguio Part 2 - Quick Answers

The group had a blast at Mines View Park Market this afternoon. I was burning a hole on my wallet and the naturally scrimper moi, did not give a freakin care in the world. I got all my sisters, friends and my teammates somethin and tomorrow, I'm buying some more. Hala!!! When is enough really enough? Quick answer: Once I'm back in Manila, ahehehe!

Tonight, we bought some drinks and took it back to the hotel. Chitchat. Gulp. Talks. Gulp. Serious talks. Gulp. More serious talks. Gulp. Someone almost (just almost) cried. Gulp. Dance like crazy. Gulp. Dance crazier. Gulp.

As the night drew to morning, people were lauging louder. Talking more lively. Danicing more animatedly. I, for some reason, stayed in my little own corner, becoming quieter and quieter as the minutes passed.

Why?

Quick answer: Beats me. But I will try to answer again...

So why?

Not-so-quick-answer: Probably because I just gradually started thinking about the last time I came here and the kind of fun I had then. The people I came here with at that time have gone and moved ahead and beyond. And yes, I basically started remiscing about the times I spent with them. Its a good thing that Shelly and "Junjun" fell asleep right then. Because suddenly, I jus wanted to be alone then.

I stood up and opened the windows and looked out. I had a glass of cold beer in my left hand. I looked across the corner and there was Gimbal's. Yes the same bar where I've gone wild-crazy-does not care about the world-party girl before. Ala lang, I just suddenly realized that so many things have changed. Some have gone for the worse. And most have gone for the better (thank gawd). But I stood for a minute wishing it was year 2000 again.

And a car honked 4 floors below me. And someone turned on the lights in one of the rooms of the building across the street. Yeah, Im in Baguio now. And its 2006. I had the best time of my life then. But right now, I could say I'm not too bad either. I feel good about myself. I feel good about the people around me. I feel good about Baguio these days.

No regrets.

Fond memories, yes. But no regrets. - That's another quick answer.

PS

Pics are being uploaded later.

Baguio Part 1

Taena! I'm on vacation en grande, in a beautiful city, with gorgeous friends and...I'm blogging..! (so what's wrong with that? - tama ba abaniko, ahihihi!)

The hassles were all worth it. Whatever that previously hindered this trip from pushing through is way under the bridge now. Ahihihi..

Im in the hotel lobby right now and Paopee, Michelle and I are waiting for Christy and "Junjun".. (sino si Junjun??). Details (and pics) to come the soonest dah-ling. Tagal nila maligo eh..Kaya nag-blog muna akech. We're about to have lunch somewhere, and after that we're going horseback riding around the corner. Then afetr that, gagala muna, then who knows, bahala na si Batman!

Ay, andito na sila..nagaantay pala kame suweldo..haha, malapit na ang bankruptcy...char! Pero taena, ulitin natin to...Next summer sa Bicol naman! Diba friends? Etong si Christy, tapos na maligo..at gusto niya agawin ang access ko. Babay, ahihihih!

Mwah people! Awabyu!

PS
I miss you na.
You know who you are.

Misery

I was supposed to go somewhere today. I was actually looking forward of going just a couple of days ago. But for some fucking reason, I don't feel like it anymore. I wish there was some way to rationalize what I'm feeling but I guess I don't want to go into much details right now. Suffice to say that I don't feel as excited as I've anticipated. Suffice to say that I just feel so damn crappy inside and I just wanna wallow in it.

This is misery, I tell you. If this ain't it, I dunno what is.

Take me out. Take me to Baguio. Now. Without the hassles.
Please.