goin crazy!

I'm so freakin bored. I cant even freakin write.
Had I been a writer, this would be called the BLOCK.
My mind is screamin for release but the the ideas get retarded somewhere between the long journey from my neurons to fingertips.
I stare at the PC for with cold dead eyes. I breathe in and breathe out almost lazily, not as if my life depended on it.
Shadows of faces and insignificant beings pass behind me. Some would be friendly. Most would stab me. I dont give a freakin care.
Is this what finally happens when people lose their sanity?
Is this what finally happens when people lose their sanity?
Opps, I repeated myself.
Did I just repeat myself?
Is this what finally happens when people lose their sanity?

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Internal-Realist Empowered Shit!

Came across this from one of them blog thingies that you manage to
find on long boring nights.

You Are Internal - Realist - Empowered
You feel your life is controlled internally.

If you want something, you make it happen.

You don't wait around for things to go your way.

You value your independence and don't like others to have control.

You are a realist when it comes to luck.

You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random.

You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you...

But you do your best to try to make your own luck.

You have a good deal of power, but you also know the pecking order.

You realize that working the system does get you further.

You know who to defer to and who to control.

When it comes to the game of life, you play things flawlessly.

YEAH RIGHT!
If so, why can't I get rid of this friggin boredom I feel right now?
If so, why can't I make this night go any faster than it is? Tonight is so effing slow, man!
Take me home.
UGH!