my sins

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Your Deadly Sins

Greed: 60%

Pride: 60%

Envy: 40%

Gluttony: 40%

Sloth: 40%

Wrath: 40%

Lust: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 40%

You'll die in a shuttle crash, on your way to your resort on the moon.

These are my sins...
So? Live life, after all, no one ever comes out of it alive! Forget some rules sometimes. Forget about norms sometimes. Do not confine yourself in a box. When we die, we stay forever compartmentalized. Be free. Sing as if no one was listening. Dance as if no one was watching. Love even if the whole world didn't care. Live this day as if it were your last. Breathe for each moment not knowing if it was the final time. Only then, shall you say, "Thank god, I'm alive..."

please

i honestly don't know what to say. i have been on a temporary blog hiatus simply because...
simply because.
let's put it this way. i am content. i am okay. work is a little stressful these days. but heck, i get paid to do my job, so i am not about to complain, ayt? let's see...
mama is temporarily staying with us at the Metro. for some reason, papa and her are facing a problem that they should have had years ago. old parents shouldn't have to feel jealousy anymore. papa, of all people, is the most confident, secure and pride-ful human being i know and he shouldn't be feeling this at all. at this point in his life when he has so much achievements, and the family as stable as ever, why should he pick on my mother about a boyfriend she had 33 years ago? never mind that this ex boyfriend was a general. never mind that he is now an executive of a well-known telecommunications company. the reality is, mama married my papa and we all know how mama cherishes their marriage. for 28 years, i have seen how mama loved this family. i have seen her take care of her children and her husband. and i have seen her sacrifices to make this family complete. papa, on the other hand, has never been a jealous person - not as a husband, at least. the question that keeps racking my brain these days is why...
and so we talked, mama and i. everytime i go home, mama comes up to my room to talk to me. i let her talk, she says it lightens her load. connie talks to papa. i don't. it's not because i am, have always been, a mama's girl, but because i don't think their relationship is any part of my problems. i said to connie, "let's move on with our life, let them be". if mama wants to stay here, and papa there, what in this fucking world could i fucking do about it? nada, right?
but no. you see, my sister memeng is so affected with the situation. she has been so depressed that she actually fell physically ill these last couple of days. she has cramps, fever and headaches and she couldn't sleep at night. believe it or not, my sister who is the source of laughter and comic antics at home now resigns herself to slouching on the couch and staring at nothing. i call my brother macky who is with papa, and he has tears in his voice. he whispers on the phone and tells me to call him back once papa is out of earshot. it breaks my heart to see my younger siblings this way. more than anything, i treat them almost like kids because i have been the oldest sister to all of them. connie's tough, i have no qualms about that. if i do breakdown, i know she'd take over. but please don't let my kid sis and my only brother see my parents this way. i have always been proud of my family. with all shams and drudgeries in this world, my family have always been my wall of strength, my parents were my shield of security. take away my family, and i am left to nothing. break us apart, and you'll see me break down.
oh god, please don't do this.

why?

why do you this? we all have worked so hard to make this work. god knows we've had enough pain to last for a long time. just when the wounds are healing and the scars are showing, you hurt us one more time. please stop. i don't want my family be shattered to pieces... please give this family a reason to stay together.

cliches

Sister Con sent me a book of cliches. My thoughts on them:

1. Fun is good.
• How can it be not? If it ain't fun, why do it?
2. To be or not to be.
• That has always been the question. My answer? If it's fun to be, then be. Makes sense?
3. Live and learn.
• In that particular order. If you learn first then live later, what's the purpose?
4. Live and let live.
• Sure, why not?
5. Life is life.
• Is it suppose to be something else in the first place?
  

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1. Life is messy.
• Learn to organize!
2. Love comes around when doing the things you like.
• Who cannot agree with this?
3. Smile. It makes people wonder.
• So he said, "What are you smiling about?" And I go, "You tell me. "
4. It could be worse.
• So true.
5. It will be worse.
• And the gods were laughing...!

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1. Feeling bad is just a new sensation.
• Kinda like sex for the first time only this time, it's emotional.
2. Tomorrow will be another day.
• If you do the work I do, it ain't.
3. I will survive.
• Sing it to believe it.
4. There is light at the end of the tunnel.
• What if it's night?
5. Midnight is where the day begins.
• That's where it also almost ends.

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1. One day, I will wake up, and it will all fit together.
• And I shall say, "Good morning sunshine!"
2. The waiting is the hardest part.
• You can sleep while doing it, ok?
3. The more things change, the more they stay the same.
• Or at least the more they want to stay the same.
4. Wisdom is not truth.
• It's the way you look at truth.
5. The truth is just as meaningful as the lie.
• Both can be very painful, so be careful in choosing what to say.

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1. When in doubt, consult your inner child.
• What if he hasn't learned how to talk yet?
2. If it doesn't come naturally, leave it.
• There goes artificial insemination, tsk.
3. Most people don't even know why they have to work.
• So, pop question: Why do you?
4. When the work is done, I will have time for myself.
• After all, work pays you. It shouldn't be confused with personal time.
5. Hurry when you have time, then you'll have time when you are in a hurry.
• But never, ever forget to smell the flowers....my friend.