I'm Okay

I haven't been posting much. Not much things to say, that's why. Been trying to re-organize my life lately, after what seemed like a whirlwind sorta' lifestyle. For those who know what's really been happening, thanks for keeping my sanity you guys. I owe it up to you. Hainaco, anubah, what's new? Lemme just think for a bit.... Gawd ala talaga eh. Sure there's lots of plans in the makin but lately, I wanted to take things really, really slow... No pressure, no deadline, no fights, no bad feelings. No nothing.

Hence, lemme' just savor my day-off mode.
Yesterday, as soon as I got off from work, I hung out for a bit with my 'kada at work. Mayet, Khree and Porsh were there. I went home earlier than usual and had lunch at home with my sisters Con and Meng. Oh, Macky bro just arrived from the province to spend his sembreak here and he brought lotsa' food with him. Needless to say lunch was mucho fantastico!

At 2PM, I was kinda' feeling lethargic so I grabbed a book, went up to my room, played a jazz cd on my stereo and fell promptly asleep. Haha, I didn't even get to page 1 of my book, nor was I able to finish the first song on my cd. By 4, Meng woke me up for my weekly dose of entertainment - SFiles and The BUZZ! Promptly got up, and went down to the kitchen for a warm, sweet merienda of banana fritters. With milk and bananas on each hand, I splunked myself down on the sofa and used my toes to change channels on the TV via remote control. Not much chismis this week though. I got bored and helped Meng in making dinner (ergo, I told her what to cook, hehe).

Trinidad kids had a warm, long conversation over dinner of nilagang mamoy and some veggies. Macky, still didn't have a girlfriend. Meng is getting her first paycheck on the 25th, and was bullied into treating us to pizza and chicken next Tuesday. And Connie was still nagging me about being too fat. Duh, get a life Maria Concepcion! Hehe.

I watched a bit of TV after dinner, and boy was I lucky to catch an old Sharon Cuneta flick on PBO. I ended up watching Bukas Luluhod Ang Mga Tala from start to finish. Mr.A called just as the movie was ending and we had a pleasant conversation full of "I miss you's", "Get here now's", "Let's meet up's"...you get the drift, right? There were lots of laughter and smirking, it was a perfect way for two special friends to catch up. But at the end of 4o minutes cellphone conversation, I felt the absence more than ever. Okay, enough of that. My love life's been taking too much airtime lately... :)

I called it a night at 10PM and splunked myself on my new bed. I brought Mojacko (the sala stuffed toy) up to my room and hugged him all night long. I woke up at 5 to cook breakfast for my 2 sisters who had work this morning. Spent the first hours of Monday morning with a cup of coffee on my left hand while watching the news. By 7PM, I was busy doing some gardening. I didnt have any new plants, so I "borrowed" a few cuttings from my neighbors. Haha, for the love of nature, pagbigyan niyo na!

By 8, I took a shower, and by 830, I was..am blogging.

So.
Tsk, what a mundane lifestyle. But I can't say I'm complaining. In fact, I do think I'm loving it.
Or maybe not. Maybe I'm just nonchalant about it. Maybe I just don't care for now. Or maybe I'm just really taking it slow this time.
I dont know.
All I know is I'm ok. Not good, not better. Just ok.
Sometimes being ok is good enough.
I've learned not to ask for more, sure.
Because right now, everything is just ok.