around the corner: February 2006

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Sad News From Pisay

I love my alma mater. I lived within the walls of Pisay for 4 of my adolescent years. I breathed, and lived Pisay and despite the rigorous academic training I received from my mentors in the early to mid 90's, I can say that I would not want to live that part of my life any other way if I had another chance.

I first received word of the sad news maybe a week ago. I took it lightly at first wth a mild tsk tsk and a slight shake of head. For some reason, I found it hard to believe that it might actually be true. But as the real thing unfolded, and as the authenticity of the news was established, I found the truth to be more and more appalling.

Yeah, we all had our "wild days" in highschool. There was the infamous arson incident with some Meson guys (our 4th year section) plus the boy's dorm incident of smearing human feces on the dorm manager's bed. There was the typical wee hour strolls around campus and the escape from the dorm via a rented FX. There was already smoking in campus during my time, but I guess these were sporadic and more out of curiosity than anything. I remember one of our batchmates unscrewing the hinges of the classrom doors so that it would fall on the earliest person to arrive for class. I know of some people who ransacked a friend's wardrobe and cut all pieces of clothing he had.We had some stealing, we had bullying. We also drank liquor back then. Some of my friends already use pregnancy test kits then. One way or another, we've had our own skeletons in high school. But this? I just couldnt take it. Who the fuck puts a ph 1 acid in someone's jug??

I find this difficult to accept simply because I was one of the people who drank from Colemans (in the front lobby) during my time. Pisay students, of all people should know that fucking ph 1 acid (like concentrated nitric acid) could be deadly especially if you mix it with H2O. Which now brings up the question: Was this incident a case of frustrated murder? If it was, then things have really changed a hell lot since my day.

And now I can only shake my head again and do a mild tsk. Shit, what's happening to Pisay? I feel as if my home is in chaos. Pisay admin, please do somethin. The alumni are waiting for directives. We can help. Let us.

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

camwhoring

I have a love-hate relationship with the camera. Sometimes I can be a true-blue camera whore - projecting, ya know, feeling and looking fabulous no-mataahfakin-whaut. But there are days I can just look like total grinning shit. Now, who among my friends and readers will know the diffrence, huh? Here are some pics of moi, with a couple of good days, and a couple of bad days of cam whoring.

Can't have enough of me, huh? Bleech.

Monday, February 20, 2006

Usapang Shoes

Sometimes I just need to put reins on my emotions no? Sometimes I let go of the anger too fast that I forget to rationalize anymore. Okay, enough cerebral and emotional discussion for now.

I decided to drown everything that I've been feeling for the last couple of days through physical exhaustion today. I'm playing badminton again, and I'm planning to play for the whole afternoon. I need this. I need to exhaust myself, to pour it all out, to give all that I've got, coz I'm so tired of this mundane thoughts already.

One dilemma though. In the past, I have always managed to get myself a sprained ankle. Both my ankles are no virgins when it comes to sprains and twists. My left one has been sprained 3 times, while the right, 4 times. And lately, during my previous badminton sessions, I've always felt a painful sensation on the heels of both my feet. I thought it was because of my trainers shoes. So today, I decided to use my runners instead. If the pain comes again tonight, Im buying a new pair.

That's the dilemma. Which pair, folks? Choose for me?

Saturday, February 18, 2006

Let The Games Begin

I dont give a fart on who you are or what you freakin do, but I just dont like you. You are the bitch of all bitches and I find it so freakin difficult to respect a bitch who does not deserve even a moment's glance from me.

Are we close? No. Most likely never will be. You know why? I dont like you as a person, much less as my boss. You give the term boss a bad name, You fuckin stain it so bad, I can almost see the taints on your ugly face.

Who do you think you are? You dont put yourself above us simply because you were assigned to lead us. You better give us enough reasons to follow because otherwise, hypocrisy is gonna be my cup of tea.

You wanna be a hypocrite? Here's news to you, I can be one too! I can play in your game, and believe it or not bitch, before long youre gonna be in my game too. So lets play this game, shall we? Be a bitch and a hypocrite, and I'll match you from head to neck to chest to vagina to foot - all the way from top to bottom, and left to right across. I wont back out come hell or high waters.

LET THE GAMES BEGIN!
For now, the guns just went off - that's your sign to start running, bitch.

Monday, February 13, 2006

looking forward

I havent been writing much. A lot has been happening these days but I havent the energy to dwell, much less write about it.

One of my dearest friends has been screwed by one of my bosses. By the term, "screwed", I dont mean any sexual connotations. Duh. I mean screwed as in fucked up, trampled on, denied, left-out - potah, lahat na.

I have also been doing a lot of searching - no, not soul searching- but old, plain searching like paghahanap, as in me hinahanap ako, gets? I freakin lost my ipod last Thursday. For the life of me, I can never seem to remember until now if I maybe left it in the taxi cab or dropped it somewhere in the office. Whatever. I'm not getting any idea of ever getting it back, but hey, whoever you are who picked it up, I still have the original accessories, bleh! I know, I know, what am I gonna do with the accessories if the main thing's gone, ayt? Ala nga, but I can still think na ako panalo, win-win situation ba. Waaah.

And yeah, I know I was supposed to be posting more pics here from my recent Baguio trip but the videocam's usb driver is lost somewhere. So ayon, wala talaga akong ganang magpost ng pics.

Okay, so basically its now obvious that I havent been having a good week, ayt? The typical jing should now be whining, sulking, and viciously blogging about her rants. But not today, ladies and gentlemen. I ain't saying I've reformed, but see, I just realized that there are so many things to look forward to, inspite of every shit that's been happenin:

** Tuesday. Ssshh. If you're planning to
be with me on Tuesday, please be safe now. I quote, "Please be safe now
dah-lings, for tomorrow, we shall live dangerously."
** Valentines dinner with my sisters. I'm
always looking forward to our dates my lovely ladies. Kahit kasama ko lang
kayo sa bahay, hehehe.
** Massage. Not from you, coz I want to
pamper you too. Massage Spa, sweetie. Yes, we're going out, dont you remember?
You owe me a date, Pipo sweetheart.
** Tagaytay. We're
going. No matter what. And guess what, everyone that needs to be there WILL BE
there.

Sometimes life gets by too fast. Sometimes we are caught right in the middle of things that we dont notice how far and how long it has been. Sometimes, we tend to dwell on the negatives because of course, these are things that need our attention. We cant afford to be nonchalant about it because we dont want to be neglectful. But see, sometimes, its also good to just move head-on and without thinking so much about it. Sometimes, spontaneity is the answer. Yeah, I like it. Spontaneity...even sounds good rolling out on my tongue.

So there. It has been years since I last looked forward to being spontaneous. I'll try again. I will start today.